Monday, August 21, 2006

Depression...A joy Ain't It!!!

Wonderful depression, just when you figure you have it beat, it sneaks up on and knocks you on your @$$. Here I am, almost 2 months away from one of the worst days of my life and I feel at times as if no time at all has past. I break out in tears out of the blue. A brief passing of his vehicle one day has me in the deep blues for 4 days. How can someone have such power over another. It's been so long since I have been myself, that I have forgotten how to be myself. The one true bright spot in my life right now, is my friends' 2 year old son. With him, I can forget all that has happened. I can forget that I need to make plans for a future. I can live in the present and be myself, if only for a short time. I need to somehow get out and meet someone. Someone who I can have fun with, go out with once in a while. Nothing serious, just someone that help fill some empty time so I am not obsessing over HIM.
All well, on to better things and the other thing that is keeping me sane!! My newest obsession and love of my life is Heaven and Earth Designs. I can see my never doing any other kind of stitching. I received my charts almost 4 weeks ago. I will have been working on my Three Graces by Josephine Wall for 4 weeks on Friday. I am loving every tiny, solitary stitch I take. I will try to post a picture soon. I need to try to locate the battery charger for the batteries for my computer. I may just break down and buy a few batteries until then. I pack my charger away somewhere and have no idea where to look for it now. Almost 4 full weeks and I still have not completed a single full page of the chart. 36 pages, I can see this going on for a long, long time. Not that I'm complaining. But I can see me moving on to the other design shortly. As well as purchasing a few others. I'm thinking of setting a up a rotation, trying to work on just HAED charts for a short while. I figure that with all I have been through, I deserve to spoil myself a little. What better way then with a start of stash of HAED charts!!

1 comment:

Rebecca said...

GOOD FOR YOU! Glad to hear you are starting to see that you can indeed move on and SPOIL YOURSELF ROTTEN! If you ever need an excuse and a new venue for stitching, my door is usually wide open...as long as you can stitch with a 4 year old and 4 month old in the house at the same time! Get in touch with me and we will set up a time to get together...curt_reb@hotmail.com
p.s. don't forget, I'm only in Camden East